Where do I want to go…?

Life is a journey…a long one…no matter what happen during the exodus, it has to end eventually. It is a matter of how interesting or challenging or how tough your journey has been (so far). The answer lies within us…in this deep scared and sacred heart…should we open up to another soul of how and what we felt…does it matter? Would it be different? Or we shall let it be a secret to ourselves…

Living life should be easy enough…to live every seconds, every minutes. Surprisingly, it was the toughest thing to do on earth - SURVIVING. We managed to live life, feed on lie, backstabbing people and laugh our way out of other people misery and death. Have you ever think of it…? Honesty is at the edge of extinction. We cheat everyday and it last a lifetime and the best part is…we don’t feel guilty at all…ever! Never want to step up and genuinely admit our horrific blunder. Does life have to be live on this scheme?

This place has been contaminated. I’m suffocating…becoming weak every moment…can someone help me..? I don’t know where to go? Where do I want to go? In or out? Up or down? How about my broken past… should I collect the pieces all by myself or just live on the remaining puzzles? Hoping that someday, someone will drop missing pieces as they pass by. Can the missing puzzles remain as it is so that it can be fit again into the picture?

Don’t worry anything on this post…not that I gave up on life…just pondering and wondering around. This vicious cycle are going to last more that I do…short and sweet is what we get…or make it KISS as we can…Crying help relieve the burden on our shoulder, to get over the unbearable pain, unbelievable lies, broken heart and sad and bad day…or we just can forget about it. I love to cry…alone.

My word is for my understanding (sometimes =) )…sorry if this whole paragraphs is a bit off for general reading and left alone for understanding…this is from the bottom of my heart…I take it as it is.